Dating is in India!

Three days was in depression. So today my roomy took me to movie. We went to Cocktail movie. Good movie liked it. I liked Deepika's perspective. I want to be Deepika, you see I am not her here in India only for one reason, I wont get a husband. 

Simple logic,
Why will I sleep with a male for 3 months and spoil my whole life when I can stay virgin and enjoy sex with a male all my life?

The same applies to all females, that's why females don't trust males. Is she mad to spoil her whole life? No, she is not. So she hides behind her parents and brother. Why you think female hates to even talk to a male? You males make her disgusting as soon as she talks about sex. Stop making her bad even when she is in live in relation. Then she will want to be one. Now if you don't wanna marry a non virgin, why will any female want to be a non virgin?

Every one wants a virgin in India as wife, then why will a female wants to have sex before marriage? Why she will want and desire to have sex with a male? When you make her bad when she talks about sex, why even she will even dare to talk about it? She wont. She will rather stay calm then talk sex.

If you treat her good even when she talks dirty and filthy - it's called sex talk and don't give a bad publicity about her. Then why she will hesitate to please you males? She will not stop pleasing your males. She will not even think sex is sin. Right?

You understand my logic?

I want sex all my life and in India as per society a male wants a virgin, and even though I am educated and medical student I am bond to be silent and obey the culture. I got my family to think of . . . so I will never loose my virginity before marriage. I am ready for my Ram to ask me for Agni Pariksha. 

If society says, "A female is bad if she works no female will dare to even work." If society says, "A female is bad if she goes to other city." Then a female will never even leave her home. If society dictates talking to males means being slut, then no female will dare to even talk to males or in fact see a male. She will be scared to even make them as her friends. As soon as a male tries to talk to her, she will run and hide behind her family and brothers. And she will be so scared that she can shout and or slap that male just for talking.

If you want a female to be in live in relation, you should accept a new change in culture. So are you ready? Movies are being accepted, change is happening. Hope you guys do understand my logic? Don't talk bad about females you are only discouraging her (females) to accept new changes. Respect her, if you want change, then accept new, dynamic, dare devil, strong, brave, intelligent thinking females. Don't be hypocrites. Don't put her in cages. Don't insult her and humiliate her for being skeptical. Logic is so simple 

Social acceptance is needed so every one can follow it with no fear, without it every female will hide behind the walls. I think this change has started in our culture. Good.

You understand my logic?

If there are females who are left unmarried because of her bad repo, then no females will be interested in live in relationship.

If every male is willing to marry a non virgin only then live in relationships will become cultural acceptance and there by females will be interested to mate with a male even when not married.

You understand the logic?

If a male has sex with 100 females,
==> 100 females are non virgins.
And every male is polygamy,
==> every male * 100 females are non virgins.

Now where are virgins?

That means you are encouraging polygamy in females. That movie is not for males, it's for females. It says to females to have sex, not to males.

Males are polygamy from ages old, but that movie is change in culture. One Ram and One Sita is now taboo. And you liking it implies that you are encouraging females to have sex outside the marriages. That means you are okay with one female and many males.

That's the theory.

Dating is in India!

So . . . now tell me why you want to have sex with many females? 

So . . . now tell me why you want females to have sex with many males?

Love comes into picture here.

Love is important not sex.

You understand me?

I am virgin by my choice not by chance. I don't fear of not being married, I only want true love. Why should I have sex with many males? What's the need? Or why a male should have sex with many females? Sex is bullshit. Sex with love is the ultimate sex.

What's my problem?

Keep thinking what you think of me. I am not here to prove it correct or wrong. Good or bad, I just don't care.

I write because I like to write,
I talk because I like to talk.
I play because I like to play.

It's always my choice. Not any ones. You are in my life or out of my life is your choice. I am least concerned.

I love it when I see faces on others when I say I am extremely intelligent. A human with EGO and PRIDE will never digest it. I love your reactions, please keep entertaining me unhappy people.

It's my confidence.

Before talking just remember I know what you are thinking! I read people. I know you in and out. I can define entire life . . . And I am very good at it. I am at least a good person, I choose to be good by my choice. It's not a compulsion, it's my own decision derived from my mind.

. . . What's my problem?

O sky!
O my heart,
Please don't break so easily,
Just please don't hide the answers,

Please keep safe it,
It's my future and please make sure it's so safe!

My pride and ego is contained and controlled by my younger set of friends. They allow me to play with them and be part of their group. They teach me how simple life is and happiness lies in enjoying with others. Win or loose, the play is important. They keep me down to earth. I love it when they take me as their part of team and treat me like one. I am never offended by them. There are a lot of intelligent people in this world. I am not alone, but I don't find one with my own properties. I wanna see a Jayashree. Now I understand groups, categories, castes, religions, cultures are formed. It's the urge to be with people like us. We search for us in others.

Why I am facing problem in expressing myself in words? Where I am failing? Why I am scared of them? What scares me so much? I am ready to do my work then why my heart is scared of answering to others? What I am fearing? What I need? What I want? What I am scared of? 

My God,

Help me,
guide me.
All through my journey.

I am intelligent, you are not intelligent, or
You are intelligent, I am not intelligent,
So what? In the end we are friends!
They teach me . . .

~my schooling friends shout:
"Come on play Jayasri! Kick ball to Chintu . . ."

And I come out of my thoughts. I just play, it's nothing to do with win or loose. We win and we loose, it's how much we enjoyed matters. I love playing school group. They don't have a pinch of sins in them. They are so pure and true. Their hearts are innocent and good. They are just they are . . .

unaware of importance of money,
unaware of importance of status,
unaware of importance of clothes,
unaware of importance of repo,

They are so innocent, those little angels keep me innocent. They give me courage to fight and help me fight evil in me. I am this pure and good because of my little friends. I play with them. I love the football mostly, "di . . . kick like this" and they give me ball.

Why I am scared of talking or explaining myself to others?


What is my problem?

Come to me, your Queen

Only in two cases you have security. You did wrong and scared of getting exposed. Or you are worth that security. I am sure you are not the latter.

                           

Why are you playing hide and seek game? Face me directly. Don't do not play and run away from me.

Fear!

It's fear that is not letting you near me. What is that fear? Fight it hard. Heroes always fight hard, and never surrender to that fear. Don't let that fear take you over and dictate you. What you are thinking isn't true. Don't let your assumptions become your master of your life. Don't let your thoughts halt you from reaching me.

Come!
Come to me!
Come for me!

It's the your enemies. They can control your head, if I am not wrong you don't believe my story. It makes them easy to manipulate your thoughts. We can control others minds, it's possible if you don't have faith. Faith not only plays vital role in your life but also stops others to control your mind. Faith fights fate. We never have proofs, you don't have a proof of any ones love, we have to just blindly believe in it. Only if you believe any thing can happen. Unless you don't believe nothing can happen.

You loved me the moment you saw me.
the sparks in your eyes,
Man - deep is our sweet baby dove,
you are my true love.
I am fighting so hard - come to me;
come for your love.

Don't let your curse win.
Don't throw me away.
Don't let me go,
Don't let your vulnerability control you.

Hold me tight in your heart,
I am your baby,
a seed metamorphosed from your eyes.
fight for your own piece of heart,

I am in your heart, you disagree
it's true and so obvious,
hold on tight to me, don't pull me out of your heart
breath me into your lungs, let your blood accept me
- flow all your body reaching your every vein.

Digest me into your blood veins,
make me part of your body,
your piece of tissue - if cut it
it should kill you.

don't give up on me, your wife.
You have accepted me as your female,
nurture it as a mother,
allow me to be your Goddess.
Make me your Queen of life and soul.

Give me my respect,
the privilege of ruling you all your journey of this life,
Kneel and bow before me accept me as your own,
honor me more than your ego,
acknowledge me as your treasure lost years back and found

My lord,

Kneel and bow before me!
Make me yours,
It's time I deserve the rightful place in your life.
Let me control you.
Have faith in me.

Heart Touching Story Of True Love

It was approximately 8.30 a.m. on a busy morning when an elderly gentleman in his eighties arrived to have stitches removed from his thumb. He stated that he was in a hurry as he had an appointment at 9.00 a.m.

I took his vital signs and had him take a seat. I knew it would take more than an hour before someone would to able to attend to him. I saw him check his watch anxiously for the time and decided to evaluate his wound since I was not busy with another patient.

On examination, the wound was well healed. Hence, I talked to one of the doctors to get the supplies to remove his sutures and redress his wound.

We began to engage in a conversation while I was taking care of his wound. I asked him if he had another doctor's appointment later as he was in such a hurry. The gentleman told me no and said that he needed to go to the nursing home to have breakfast with his wife.

I inquired about her health. He told me that she had been in the nursing home for a while as she was a victim of Alzheimer's disease. I probed further and asked if she would be upset if he was slightly late. He replied that she no longer knew who he was and she had not been able to recognize him since five years ago.

I asked him in surprise, "And you still go every morning, even though she doesn't know who you are?"

He smiled as he patted my hand and said, "She doesn't know me, but I still know who she is."

I had to hold back my tears as he left.

I had goose bumps on my arm, and I thought, "That is the kind of love I want in my life."

True love is neither physical nor romantic. True love is an acceptance of all that is, has been, will be, and will not be.

Love is important not money.

A poor boy loved a rich girl.

One day the boy proposed her. Then the girl said, "listen! your monthly salary is my daily hand expenses. Should I be involved with you? How could you thought that? I will never love you. So, forget me 'n get engaged with someone else of your level."

But somehow the boy could not forget her so easily.

10 years later.

One day they became face to face in a shopping center. The lady said, "Hey! you! How are you? Now I'm married. Do you know how much is my husband's salary? Rs. 2 lac per month! Can you imagine? 'n he is also very smart."

The guy's eyes got wet with tear by hearing those words.

After few minutes her husband came before the lady could say something to the guy, her husband started to say by seeing the guy.

"Sir! You here? Meet my wife." Then he said to her wife, "I'm going to assist a project of sir, which is of Rs. 200 crore. 'n do u know a fact? Sir loved a girl but he didn't get her. That's why still he is unmarried. How much lucky the girl was. Isn't it? Now a days who can love like that way?"

Moral: Life is not so short. So, don't be so proud of yourself and damn others. Situations change with time. Every one should respect other's love.

I would marry a guy who would love me like hell . . . finding love is the most difficult thing in this world. We can earn money but we cannot earn true love. I would die for a male like this.

The life is the only career which interests me.

The love of a child is an absolute. We must respond with absolute or nothing. There is no middle ground.

A boy was born to a couple after eleven years of marriage. They were a loving couple and the boy was the apple of their eyes. When the boy was around two years old, one morning the husband saw a medicine bottle open. He was late for work so he asked the wife to cap the bottle and keep it in the cupboard. The mother, preoccupied in the kitchen, totally forgot the matter.

The boy saw the bottle and playfully went to the bottle and, fascinated with its color, drank it all. It happened to be a poisonous medicine meant for adults in small dosages. When the child collapsed, the mother hurried him to the hospital, where he died. The mother was stunned. She was terrified how to face her husband.

When the distraught father came to the hospital and saw the dead child, he looked at his wife and uttered just four words.

What do you think were the four words?

The husband just said "I Love You Darling"

The husband's totally unexpected reaction is proactive behavior. The child is dead. He can never be brought back to life. There is no point in finding fault with the mother. Besides, if only he have taken time to keep the bottle away, this will not have happened. No point in attaching blame. She had also lost her only child. What she needed at that moment was consolation and sympathy from the husband. That is what he gave her.

Sometimes we spend time asking who is responsible or who to blame, whether in a relationship, in a job or with the people we know. We miss out some warmth in human relationship in giving each other support. After all, shouldn't forgiving someone we love be the easiest thing in the world to do? Treasure what you have. Don't multiply pain, anguish and suffering by holding on to forgiveness.

If everyone can look at life with this kind of perspective, there would be much fewer problems in the world.

Take off all your envies, jealousies, unwillingness to forgive, selfishness, and fears and you will find things are actually not as difficult as you think.

My Ranjha!

Without love,
all worship is a burden,
all dancing is a chore,
all music is mere noise.
All the rain of heaven may fall into the sea.

Without love,
not one drop could become a pearl.
. . . do you allow another to run your life? . . . your life is yours, and because of this fact, you must hold yourself accountable for your thoughts, feelings, behavior and actions, none else has the sovereignty . . . assume the consequences of your decisions to admit your own risk . . . claim your space, and do not allow anyone to contaminate the air that you breathe, as it's nourishment for your vital organs . . . who has extinguished your feelings for decades, has eliminated the fruit of your soul..reclaim them!~ and dedicate your life to creating a strong and balanced soul, starting with your own will ... if your in a cafeteria amongst criticism, sarcasm and judgements, MOVE AWAY!..those people are only scalding their own recycled energy...did you give them permission to enter your chamber of serenity and hurt you??? ...your inner being chooses to filter every day the best for your development..Your TRUTH. Let it guide you.. the depth of your thoughts, are yours, and you are NOT like everyone else...YOU were born with the power of creativity...because you are FREE...have u decided just, LOVE?

I love you . . . come to me my Ranjha.