Dating is in India!

Three days was in depression. So today my roomy took me to movie. We went to Cocktail movie. Good movie liked it. I liked Deepika's perspective. I want to be Deepika, you see I am not her here in India only for one reason, I wont get a husband. 

Simple logic,
Why will I sleep with a male for 3 months and spoil my whole life when I can stay virgin and enjoy sex with a male all my life?

The same applies to all females, that's why females don't trust males. Is she mad to spoil her whole life? No, she is not. So she hides behind her parents and brother. Why you think female hates to even talk to a male? You males make her disgusting as soon as she talks about sex. Stop making her bad even when she is in live in relation. Then she will want to be one. Now if you don't wanna marry a non virgin, why will any female want to be a non virgin?

Every one wants a virgin in India as wife, then why will a female wants to have sex before marriage? Why she will want and desire to have sex with a male? When you make her bad when she talks about sex, why even she will even dare to talk about it? She wont. She will rather stay calm then talk sex.

If you treat her good even when she talks dirty and filthy - it's called sex talk and don't give a bad publicity about her. Then why she will hesitate to please you males? She will not stop pleasing your males. She will not even think sex is sin. Right?

You understand my logic?

I want sex all my life and in India as per society a male wants a virgin, and even though I am educated and medical student I am bond to be silent and obey the culture. I got my family to think of . . . so I will never loose my virginity before marriage. I am ready for my Ram to ask me for Agni Pariksha. 

If society says, "A female is bad if she works no female will dare to even work." If society says, "A female is bad if she goes to other city." Then a female will never even leave her home. If society dictates talking to males means being slut, then no female will dare to even talk to males or in fact see a male. She will be scared to even make them as her friends. As soon as a male tries to talk to her, she will run and hide behind her family and brothers. And she will be so scared that she can shout and or slap that male just for talking.

If you want a female to be in live in relation, you should accept a new change in culture. So are you ready? Movies are being accepted, change is happening. Hope you guys do understand my logic? Don't talk bad about females you are only discouraging her (females) to accept new changes. Respect her, if you want change, then accept new, dynamic, dare devil, strong, brave, intelligent thinking females. Don't be hypocrites. Don't put her in cages. Don't insult her and humiliate her for being skeptical. Logic is so simple 

Social acceptance is needed so every one can follow it with no fear, without it every female will hide behind the walls. I think this change has started in our culture. Good.

You understand my logic?

If there are females who are left unmarried because of her bad repo, then no females will be interested in live in relationship.

If every male is willing to marry a non virgin only then live in relationships will become cultural acceptance and there by females will be interested to mate with a male even when not married.

You understand the logic?

If a male has sex with 100 females,
==> 100 females are non virgins.
And every male is polygamy,
==> every male * 100 females are non virgins.

Now where are virgins?

That means you are encouraging polygamy in females. That movie is not for males, it's for females. It says to females to have sex, not to males.

Males are polygamy from ages old, but that movie is change in culture. One Ram and One Sita is now taboo. And you liking it implies that you are encouraging females to have sex outside the marriages. That means you are okay with one female and many males.

That's the theory.

Dating is in India!

So . . . now tell me why you want to have sex with many females? 

So . . . now tell me why you want females to have sex with many males?

Love comes into picture here.

Love is important not sex.

You understand me?

I am virgin by my choice not by chance. I don't fear of not being married, I only want true love. Why should I have sex with many males? What's the need? Or why a male should have sex with many females? Sex is bullshit. Sex with love is the ultimate sex.

What's my problem?

Keep thinking what you think of me. I am not here to prove it correct or wrong. Good or bad, I just don't care.

I write because I like to write,
I talk because I like to talk.
I play because I like to play.

It's always my choice. Not any ones. You are in my life or out of my life is your choice. I am least concerned.

I love it when I see faces on others when I say I am extremely intelligent. A human with EGO and PRIDE will never digest it. I love your reactions, please keep entertaining me unhappy people.

It's my confidence.

Before talking just remember I know what you are thinking! I read people. I know you in and out. I can define entire life . . . And I am very good at it. I am at least a good person, I choose to be good by my choice. It's not a compulsion, it's my own decision derived from my mind.

. . . What's my problem?

O sky!
O my heart,
Please don't break so easily,
Just please don't hide the answers,

Please keep safe it,
It's my future and please make sure it's so safe!

My pride and ego is contained and controlled by my younger set of friends. They allow me to play with them and be part of their group. They teach me how simple life is and happiness lies in enjoying with others. Win or loose, the play is important. They keep me down to earth. I love it when they take me as their part of team and treat me like one. I am never offended by them. There are a lot of intelligent people in this world. I am not alone, but I don't find one with my own properties. I wanna see a Jayashree. Now I understand groups, categories, castes, religions, cultures are formed. It's the urge to be with people like us. We search for us in others.

Why I am facing problem in expressing myself in words? Where I am failing? Why I am scared of them? What scares me so much? I am ready to do my work then why my heart is scared of answering to others? What I am fearing? What I need? What I want? What I am scared of? 

My God,

Help me,
guide me.
All through my journey.

I am intelligent, you are not intelligent, or
You are intelligent, I am not intelligent,
So what? In the end we are friends!
They teach me . . .

~my schooling friends shout:
"Come on play Jayasri! Kick ball to Chintu . . ."

And I come out of my thoughts. I just play, it's nothing to do with win or loose. We win and we loose, it's how much we enjoyed matters. I love playing school group. They don't have a pinch of sins in them. They are so pure and true. Their hearts are innocent and good. They are just they are . . .

unaware of importance of money,
unaware of importance of status,
unaware of importance of clothes,
unaware of importance of repo,

They are so innocent, those little angels keep me innocent. They give me courage to fight and help me fight evil in me. I am this pure and good because of my little friends. I play with them. I love the football mostly, "di . . . kick like this" and they give me ball.

Why I am scared of talking or explaining myself to others?


What is my problem?

Come to me, your Queen

Only in two cases you have security. You did wrong and scared of getting exposed. Or you are worth that security. I am sure you are not the latter.

                           

Why are you playing hide and seek game? Face me directly. Don't do not play and run away from me.

Fear!

It's fear that is not letting you near me. What is that fear? Fight it hard. Heroes always fight hard, and never surrender to that fear. Don't let that fear take you over and dictate you. What you are thinking isn't true. Don't let your assumptions become your master of your life. Don't let your thoughts halt you from reaching me.

Come!
Come to me!
Come for me!

It's the your enemies. They can control your head, if I am not wrong you don't believe my story. It makes them easy to manipulate your thoughts. We can control others minds, it's possible if you don't have faith. Faith not only plays vital role in your life but also stops others to control your mind. Faith fights fate. We never have proofs, you don't have a proof of any ones love, we have to just blindly believe in it. Only if you believe any thing can happen. Unless you don't believe nothing can happen.

You loved me the moment you saw me.
the sparks in your eyes,
Man - deep is our sweet baby dove,
you are my true love.
I am fighting so hard - come to me;
come for your love.

Don't let your curse win.
Don't throw me away.
Don't let me go,
Don't let your vulnerability control you.

Hold me tight in your heart,
I am your baby,
a seed metamorphosed from your eyes.
fight for your own piece of heart,

I am in your heart, you disagree
it's true and so obvious,
hold on tight to me, don't pull me out of your heart
breath me into your lungs, let your blood accept me
- flow all your body reaching your every vein.

Digest me into your blood veins,
make me part of your body,
your piece of tissue - if cut it
it should kill you.

don't give up on me, your wife.
You have accepted me as your female,
nurture it as a mother,
allow me to be your Goddess.
Make me your Queen of life and soul.

Give me my respect,
the privilege of ruling you all your journey of this life,
Kneel and bow before me accept me as your own,
honor me more than your ego,
acknowledge me as your treasure lost years back and found

My lord,

Kneel and bow before me!
Make me yours,
It's time I deserve the rightful place in your life.
Let me control you.
Have faith in me.